i grew up with two voices
my brother grew up with half a voice
i learnt his language from the start
my mothers tongue is not the same
rethinking to translate
the shapes and sounds slightly warped
i often dream as a different tongue
it makes non sense
now i have a third voice
to help express
hands from my chest outwards
repeat multiple times
to make sense


like feeling the word inside
like willing it to come out
displaced to my hands


sometimes
i let it go to the light-weight construction on my shoulder
sometimes
it lives only in my computer
holding it for me
so i don't forget
shocked when i hear my voice preserved in the dead space
it sounds so warm inside my head


i imagine crawling inside my mouth
laying on my cushioned tongue
how would i sound there?
but now with an impediment
now two of me

physically